Shake it off, Let it go,
Be strong, Move on.

The tiny voice within my heart speaks out, whispering to parts of my body. My head starts to spin and think, impulse sent to my fingers. They feel the ting-a-ling feeling. They start to type. So here it goes. Enjoy!=)

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Nothing is something and I am a something! :)
Sunday, June 20, 2010, 2:33:00 PM


I AM BACK! :)

Oh well... As you can see from my tweets and my facebook status, I've been living a great life in Melbourne. Thanks for all your cares, your worries, and your prayers!Just one thing I wish for is that Melbourne should have snow. It would be awesome for me to experience snow in another country. Good to know that I actually like winter. I love the cold anyway. Now, it's like natural air conditioning to me. Loving it! Yeah...

If you guys are gonna ask me how is my life,

I can tell you that it's good. Just a little bored and bored and bored. hahaha.. Oh well... I've got a new GOOD habit which is reading. I've been reading lately. After such a long time of not exercising my eyes and my brains, My brain says: "I AM BACK."

I've finished Mitch Albom's lovely book, Have A Little Faith. (Thanks Melissa Teoh for buying that for me as my farewell present!) He did it again. I think it's a truly amazing book but I do prefer his previous work. Not that this has no power in it. It's just that, I think I've understand that everyone needs to have faith to live and we should be or are using it unconsciously. I know I have and I'm still doing it every single moment of my life. Like I've said in my older blogs, we always need to live in the moment and that's what matters. You will never regret and will be happy most of the times.

I put most of the times because I can't deny the fact that sometimes we will be sad, we have our ups and downs. I still do. There was one day, when I was just missing Malaysian Food and Friends and Family, that I've got a sudden breakdown that I couldn't sleep in the middle of the night and I started hitting the wall in my room furiously.* Just a reminder: I do not do that often. So do not worry people. It's just when people really pisses me off and I just need to let go sometimes. I know it's not a good thing to do and YES, I'm still a human. I'm still changing. I must say that the "hitting myself progress" has been well. I used to hit myself alot last time but it was a secret. The fact that I'm putting it up in my blog is for you to know and update you and I want to be as honest and clear as I can be.*
Anyway, I've calmed myself down and ALL SMILES again! :))

Right now, I'm just sitting outside my uni's cafe and using their internet!
A phrase saying: " When you have free stuff, why decline? Just use it while you can and make the best out of it!" I probably just created that phrase myself. hahaha.. Oh well.. That's me bullshiting!


Today, I was pretty excited because it's my first show in Melbourne and it was a good run! Woohoo...

There you go with the facebook link:
http://www.facebook.com/#!/event.php?eid=121923977841159&index=1

The problem is blogging is when I do not know when to end my blog and maybe this is the right time to do! So...see ya again....I shall I say...SOON!!!

Semper Fedelis JayTee




Re-energize~
Friday, June 18, 2010, 11:40:00 PM

Alright!
I'm back peeps!!! I guess no one is nosey around my blog anymore!! hahaha...
I think I need to do some publicity again! hahaha.. :)


I'll be back!! See ya soon!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




Inspiring words when you are down
Saturday, March 27, 2010, 8:41:00 PM

Hi hi!!

How are you guys doing??
Just another 2 weeks, I'll be having my own internet!! I can't wait... woohoo...

Just a short inspirational paragraph for you guys!

God loves you for who you are no matter what you have been through, even when you feel dirtiest.
God still cares for you and He wants to love you even more if you are willing to open your heart to Him and accept Him.
God is more than willing to wash you clean each and everyday and that you'll be changed, though, as humans, we are still not perfect. But God doesn't want a perfect you, He wants to slowly help you and show you and love you day by day.
God Loves You!

Have a good night,fellas!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




MELBOURNE!
Saturday, March 13, 2010, 7:14:00 PM

Greetings from Melbourne, Australia!! :)) hahaha...

This is a park really near to my crib!! NICE!! LOVING IT!!

After such a long time, I think I really need to update my blog.. :PP
Finally I've settled down nicely and I'm loving this place!!

God has been tremendously great in my life. I'm so blessed by His love and His people around me. He sent many people to help me and get familiarized with this place and it's such a blessings to be in His presence everyday!

My uni is GREAT! I'm loving it each and everyday. I've got lecturers who designed SUPERMAN's movie before and big blockbusters, who managed the commonwealth games' in Australia, who went touring all around the world... It's such a blessing to get them to teach me! :))

Currently, I do not have internet at home and I'm applying one! woohoo... can't wait to get it actually. I didn't know I'm such a internet freak who needs internet for 24/7. It's like the air I breathe. Luckily, I'm under Melbourne Uni, which means I can access to their internet and guess what, Melbourne Uni's Business building is just next to my apartment...So... hahahaha... I just sit outside of my house and surf the net... Enjoying the wind and the breeze... The sound of the trams passing by and drunk people talking...hahaha... :PPP

Alright... My assignments are also coming up really fast.. and I've been a really good student! I've finished all my assignments except for those group works... hahaha...which needs plenty of incubation period and brainstorms and discussions!! :)))

Have a great weekend peeps!!!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




JINXXX
Saturday, January 30, 2010, 12:55:00 AM

Today is my last day of work!!!!
YEAH!!!!!!!!

But.....
Guess what.....

Enjoy the video. :P



After that...
We have some cleaning to do.
For those who do not know what to do with WET CARPET.... Try this... It helps a little bit...



The iron works better.
Hair dryer... USELESS!!! Don't even dry a single thing except your hair on your legs... :)

I Hope You Enjoyed The Video!!!
*Another 2 weeks to Melbourne... Nervous.... Opppsss... Nak Pang Sai...

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




Artistic Shots
Wednesday, January 27, 2010, 2:24:00 PM


I might not be a good photographer. But I want to be one. :)

Trying out some good shots.
All the photographs are taken in Hilton Hotel Kuala Lumpur.

Please do feel free to give me some comments! :D


Lounge Area


Grand Ballroom


Glasses


Hanging Lights


Private Lounge Area - Restricted


Coffee Cream


Lounge Decorations - Glass Pebbles


White Wine + Ice

Thanks!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




Lang Hua YI Duo Duo
Thursday, January 14, 2010, 12:02:00 AM


Wanna hear me sing CHINESE?? hahahaha...

Check it out! ;P



thank you.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




NEEDS OR WANTS??? the choice is in your hands
Wednesday, January 13, 2010, 11:49:00 PM


Human Beings!!!

Sometimes we do not know how to differentiate things that we NEED and things that WANT.

And one of those human being in this planet is

ME.I'm gonna stop buying and start saving for my future.
:D
AMEN!
Semper Fedelis
JayTee




Welcome 2010! Cheers! :D
Thursday, December 31, 2009, 11:40:00 AM

Hi peeps again,I'm back to type off my last write - out for this year!
I just can't believe it that 2009 is ending. So fast. I just couldn't feel that speed. It's like we are all in a dream and we just woke up by a pinch.

OUCH!It's the new year!

Somehow, finally, falling off from the bed, I just realized that 2010 is coming within a few hours. And all should know that time will not wait for men.
Time is so precious that if you miss a step you can never go back to mend your wrong doings. We need to be alert at all times, not to just do the right thing but mean it with all your heart, all your soul and all your mind.
No worries, when you realized, you need to quickly pace your steps and move on!


I think 2009 has been a pretty good year for me.

Thank you, 2009.

Thank you all who have been upholding me in my studies, my work, my health, my life and my all.

Thank you!


I know that part of me, I've became stronger, a little more intelligent, a little more caring and probably more observant to the people around me.
I came out from that little hole of mine and took that small little step of faith to see how the world really looks like. Truth is that the world is UGLY by itself. But... UGLY in a uniquely awesome way...

(Mixture of so many different types of candies, chocolates, colours and smell.)

I'm inspired by this Author, Mitch Albom. He writes off such great articles and books that are real and reflects life. Tuesday with Morrie is one of my favourite. And this story which I'm going to reveal in another few sentences are somewhat related to life and that book itself.

http://blog.syracuse.com/shelflife/2007/10/tuesdays.jpg

As I've said, Time flies. I'm all grown up. I can say that, i guess... ;P
A few days back, My parents and I visited a very old teacher who has impacted my life in a tremendous way.

She is already 80 years old today. I was so fearful to even listen to her name last time during my childhood. She might be really stern, prim and proper but her heart is good. Every night as I closed my eyes to sleep during my younger days, I might get nightmares of her. She is my English teacher, my kindergarden headmistress. I can still remember her piles of homework that she bestowed unto me. It's funny to have feelings like that towards her before.

Despite all, I love her. I respect and I admire her.

As I've written, she is already 80 years old. She is already not young at all. She went through operations and had many health problems. She is still human. She does complain about all these problems her body are giving her. Guess what, she's still looking forward each and everyday to see how the Lord can bless her with. All she ever want at this age is friendship, companionship. She kept reminding me these.

"Joyce, you need to live your life. You need to enjoy it. You need to know what you're doing about it and not dump it into the deep blue sea. Be happy with what you have and continue to bless people. Look at me. I might be old. I can't really walk. But, if i ever get the chance to do that again, I would go all around and experience the world. Taste the world. Smell the world. Most importantly, Live! Be grateful. Somewhat in life, we will go through all sort of things. I've been through so many things, so much more than you. I know a lot of things and I'm really happy for you. I'm glad to see you here."
When she said these, she almost made me tear. My heart was grabbing my bones. It made me shiver.

"You know, when you're 80, you look at things differently. You don't care much about what the world is doing anymore. The only thing that's running in your head is your loved ones, friends and family. You wish everybody will be there with you, accompanying you everyday. I will spend my days to share all that I've been through before and let these words of wisdom and experience live in their hearts. I'll be content. Sometimes, I do ask God, why do you still keep me here? I don't think I'm that useful anymore. Well, you wouldn't know what God wants you to do the next moment or how He would bless you the next day. Everyday, I can't wait to get up and spend my time with Him. You think I read a lot. But every time you reread the passage, the story, it tells of different things. It touches you in an extraordinary way. So, Joyce... You need to continue to experience Him and do not let Him go. When you go out there, you will know that He is real."
A heart like me, would definitely run to a corner and blast my tears... I was grabbing my pants, telling myself not to weep.

Basically, that was what happened in her place. I got a feeling that that was my last day with her. The next time I see her, it would be in heaven. :)

I will accept 2010 and hope that it will be a great year and it will be definitely challenging year for me as I'll be alone in a foreign land. I know I have friends there. But, my family is here.

Alright!
I want to wish all of youHAPPY BLESSED NEW YEAR
filled with new rays of hope, joy, peace, and love.
:) :) :) :) :)


I Heart All Of You!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




New Year's around the corner
Tuesday, December 29, 2009, 12:46:00 PM

Hey peeps,

It has been a pretty long time since the last blog. While as you know, it's the end of the season, end of the year, all the buses and trains are all over the place, honking the town again. Season of joy, season of love, season of happiness, season of sorrows, all different types of emotions creep into one's heart.
Mixed feelings.


Me? I was dumbfounded. Looking back, walking down those memory lanes, I see moments of joy, moments of sadness, moments of tension, as though everything was a movie but of course, without an ending. I can't believe that I've been growing old, as in physically. Mentally and emotionally, probably, I'm still a kid, enjoying life like a box of chocolates. :)

Besides accepting the fact that I've graduated and earned a diploma in Performing Arts. It's no big deal actually because in this world now, who sees diploma certs? I know of friends who love to study and getting masters and PhDs. It's like their life are all about knowledge, books and coffee.
hahaha... sorry, bookworms!


As far as I know, I'm really a kid and hopefully i will be a teenager soon and get my own life in this world. People might think I'm very independent and smart. The real and ugly truth is that I'm not. I count on and cling on my mommy a lot. From next year onwards, which is in another few days, I'll keep telling myself to stand on my own two feet and walk like a real man! It's tough but I got to do it because...

Well, this is another phase of my life story.
hahaha.. Some people might already know this news. I've been accepted to Australia, Melbourne. Going to VCA, under University Of Melbourne for 3 years, taking a degree in Productions. :) It's good news of great joy.
But, all these heart-warmth memories I'm leaving behind definitely make me tear every night and wet my pillow. No matter what, Malaysian friends will always be close in my heart and I'll never forget you guys and gals. I'll be leaving to Australia in end of February.


There goes my transformation period. Kid becoming a Teenager. Definitely lots of exciting stories to tell and fill you guys up with the juiciest gossips! :)

Come back to reality. Life is not always a bed of roses You can't always get what you want in life right?

Love.
It's up to you to guess whether I'm in love before or not. I may be typing this out of experience or may it be a fraction of my imagination. Isn't it just like love. When you love someone and yet you cannot get the person that you love. All you can ever do is dream that the person will be with you and love you back. Looking from afar, it's heartbreaking, at the same time, you hope for that person's future to be safe in his/her lover's arms.

Career.
You might love to be a well known cook or a rocker and guess what. You ended up being a doctor.because you do not want to break your parents' heart. Again.. That's not what you want or what you really desire. Funny how life can be at times and how humorous God can really be. Yet, He still bless us and keep us well.

These might be just the common examples of not getting what you want in life. Heck what, think positive and who knows, greater things might come and take you around and transform you into an amazing thing! :)

Coming back to life. It's like a new adventure waiting to be unfold. You may think you're the person holding the pen or there might be someone who is the author, who cares, all I know is when I look up the sky, I see that the world is so big and there are so many things waiting for me to venture into.

I'm sure everybody is busy jotting down and ticking away with their new year's resolution(s).
hahaha.. Me? I don't even have one this year. I thought of losing weight but guess what, I did! Yet, it's not in my new year resolution list. So, basically, it's empty. But, in my heart, I know I did learn something new this year and I thank God for his amazing love as always. I heart you God.


Right now, I'm gonna think what are my new year's resolution and may this one vision leads me to be a better person! Hurrah! :)

See ya all around again.

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




cheers!
Saturday, December 26, 2009, 1:10:00 AM

The new year is arriving!!!

Time flies!!!

Updates soon... Wait ya...

Love from me always...
Semper Fedelis
JayTee




Christmas Season... Here!! Now!!! :)
Tuesday, December 8, 2009, 12:37:00 AM

Christmas is Near.
And Here We Go Again! :)) Enjoy!

I want to wish you all a blessed Christmas and Happy New Year!!!



More Christmas songs coming up! :)))

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




HELP!!! RAPTURE IS NEAR!!!! 2012???
Sunday, November 29, 2009, 11:18:00 PM

Alright, I have been blogging for quite some time. ( I meant writing and not video blogging. ;P)
*Do I still know how to write? hehee... I guess so.

Well, currently my life right now is pretty good. God has been with me throughout my rough moments and now the waves are clear and I can see the tame waters swirling and tickling the edge of my toes. Ah! Nature, how great is God's creation. :)

I'm currently working part time with Dama Orchestra. I used to do my internship there and they want me to continue and I've somehow accepted the offer. Basically, I'm just editing some videos and continue to do some archive work. At the meantime, I'm still waiting for an answer from the Australia University (VCA - from now onwards, I shall just write VCA). If it's God's will and plan for me to go there and further my studies, then I shall be there and He will be with me and take me through as I know the rough ahead of me will be 10x more challenging than now. But, nothing is impossible in God. :)

I've been spending lots of quality time with my family nowadays since I'm part time working. I miss spending time with them. We usually go out for dinner, do a little window shopping, buy some groceries, and watch a movie or chill in a cafe and talk about life. Last week, we went to watch this blockbuster you and I know about, 2012. Some people said it was really good. Some said with was bad. What about me?


As you know big blockbuster are not always excellent, and I do not think this is a great film either. The director, Roland Emmerich, likes to touch on topics like the end times or something evade the earth and he loves to dig in to history and search for facts and create his brand new world of its own. Well, I do like how he loves to touch on interesting topic like that, I'm sure everybody loves mysterious, unanswerable questions and the end of days.

I don't really like the story of the film. I know he wants to focus on family and I like how directors touch on family and bring awareness to people but the way he did it, I do not amuse me. Though, the visual effects and those loud grabbing-on-the-edge-of-your seats effect did work on me. I was basically in the cinema doing all these little weird gestures ( if you can imagine...hehehe...), probably the person behind me was going to throw his/her slippers at me. ;P
Back to critical thinking, I really don't like how everything was just right and about time and they are all safe. In reality, I don't think it will ever happen. Hundreds of meteoroids come blasting towards earth and an airplane just flew pass safely? A cool limousine can just drive through cracks and picket fences, fly through buildings and land safely on the ground while the earth slowly sinks? I do not think it's possible. Therefore, I disagree with him in how he wants to make all the heros in the story safe. At least few people die, please!
*even my mom was like, it's so fake! it's so fake!*
I like how the director touches on the government and how dark politics were involve and how he deals with the different classes within people. I like how he tackles the poor and the rich and the people with power. The poor are always the last, the rich... thank god they got money to build such a big ship, so they get the chance to see awhile, and lastly the people with power. They are the ones who call the shots. I also like how presidents humble themselve to serve mankind. Well, I do hope in reality it's like this. :)
But, it's good that Hollywood blockbusters always come with a good ending. Hopeful. My conclusion, I do not think the film is good nor bad. It was alright. :)

So after watching the film, what's your feeling? Some people are afraid of that day to come. Some people do not even want to think about it. And many are already planning of what to do, what to bring and what to expect for that day. Me?

I went to my mom's church and the pastor preached this during his sermon last week.
Reminder: We, christians, need to seperate biblical truth and Hollywood fiction. :)
It is true that what have been written in the bible and what have been prophesied is slowly coming to life. You can see false prophets deceiving people, you can see wars and rumours of wars, you can see nation fighting with nations, earthquakes, famine... and the list goes on and on. BUT, these are just the beginning of the birth pains. The worse is yet to come.
Church will undergo persecution. Christians will be hated and killed. The temple is going to be desecrated. The sun will be darken, the moon will not shine and the starts will fall from the sky. Are you afraid? Am I scaring you? Well, these are all in the bible.

Mark 13:13
"All men will hate you because of me, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved."

Christians, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, Stand firm in Christ! Be strong in the Lord.

I hope that you are having peace in your heart right now. End times is near. But, we are preparing for this greater day when Jesus is coming to take us all back to Him and He will give us a new body and make us clean again and we will no longer suffer on earth. We will praise and worship at His feet everyday of our lifes. :) How amazing is His love! Amen!

Semper Fedelis
JayTee




I don't want to be LOR
Thursday, November 19, 2009, 11:38:00 PM



Semper Fedelis
JayTee




Satu Lagi!! =PPP
Friday, November 13, 2009, 11:01:00 PM

Juno Soundtrack
All I Want Is You



Enjoy!

Dedicating this to " Write Love On Her Arms".
I can be your friend. :)

Semper Fedelis
JayTee