Shake it off, Let it go,
Be strong, Move on.
The tiny voice within my heart speaks out, whispering to parts of my body. My head starts to spin and think, impulse sent to my fingers. They feel the ting-a-ling feeling. They start to type. So here it goes. Enjoy!=)
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Episode 2- Mind boogling
Saturday, February 28, 2009, 11:08:00 PM
Samuel is lying on his bed, half drunk. He has locked himself for days and weeks and just wouldn't want to come out. His eyes are all swollen and he has not bathe for days. He's deep in thought. From his soaked wet eyes, you can feel his pain, his brokenness, his wounded heart.
All these things are running in his head.
" Oh Giselle! I really love you. I can't stop thinking bout you for day and night. You are just everywhere. When i close my eyes, you are there. When i open my eyes, you are there. I can't do anything. I can't eat, i can't sleep. You're haunting me. How can i ever get rid of such thoughts. It's killing me.
Sam! Sam! Sam! You're such a jerk! How can you ever let her go. You told her you will not let her go but you did. What on earth did you just do? You miss the biggest opportunity. Screw you big time!!!
But if i do not let her go, she will be suffering and I don't want her to suffer. I would take all her pain away and put it on me. I would see her happy than looking at her lost and empty face. At least, she's happy now.
Yeah!! She is happy. Maybe. You'll never know. But what about us? Have you ever thought bout us? I'm suffering. You're suffering. Our body is suffering. And it's killing the both of us. Why are you such a coward? You should fight for her. I can help you then. But you did not. You let her go just like that. Then now, you cry every night like a sissy. I'm so disappointed with you. You will never be a real man. Never!
That's it! Shut up! I'm feeling it, alright! I'm regretting. I know I shouldn't have let her go but it's over. I can't turn back time. Now. Our plan is to love her no matter what happens. Even though, I'm not with her, but from every angle, I'll love her. I promise her I'll love her till the very last breath. And even after that, I'll be an angel that will always be by her side, comforting and protecting her. I want her to be the happiest person in this world. I just don't want her to be sad. I don't want to be hurt. I want her to be happy. Please. Will you do this?
Sam. I really don't know what should i do with you. After all those things that she had done to you, you... Alright. I'm not that bad either. I love her very much too. But, i warn you first. At times, I'll lose my control and things will just let go, Kay? If i see things, I will not hide. I will hit stuff and say stuff that might not be right and it might hurt her.
We'll try to control all these feelings. There's only her now. No more any other girls. Just her. She will be the only one that has my heart. I've gave it to her. It belongs to her.
Giselle, I love you always and forever. You can't escape me. My love for you is never ending, it will always go on and on. My feelings for you will grow stronger and stronger each day. I pray for you day and night, to be the happiest lady I've ever met."
Semper Fedelis
JayTee