Shake it off, Let it go,
Be strong, Move on.
The tiny voice within my heart speaks out, whispering to parts of my body. My head starts to spin and think, impulse sent to my fingers. They feel the ting-a-ling feeling. They start to type. So here it goes. Enjoy!=)
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Episode 4- How do I breathe?
Sunday, March 8, 2009, 12:32:00 AM
Every night, it's a struggle for Sam. He hates listening to the sound of music because it just saddens his heart. But, he still listens. He feels for many heart breaking songs.
It's hard for Sam to breathe every day. It's hard for Sam to move on in his life when he couldn't let go of his feelings for Giselle.
Giselle is someone so special. So unique. Sam never treated anyone so real before in his life. He wants to show more but it's a little too late. He would want to turn back time to change things. Giselle is the one and only girl that he will ever loved. He used to have a girl before Giselle. But, it's a whole different relationship. Sam knows that he loves Giselle like nobody's business. He never have such feelings before.
He said that this would be his last relationship. He would not fall for anyone anymore. He is now heartless. He would rather stay heartless. He doesn't want any other girls anymore. All he has right now is nothing. But, it doesn't really matter. All he ever wants is to see Giselle, happy with her life, enjoying everything to the fullest.
Sam will continue to look at her from afar. He will continue to pray for the best for her future and make sure she is always alright. Sam promised her to be her guardian angel. It does not matter if Giselle doesn't care. Sam will continue to love her in the dark and during the day. Every moment. Every single day. Every hour, every minute, every second.
Right now, Sam is listening to his Ipod. Repeating this song, How Do I Breathe by Mario Barrett.
How do i breathe
How do i breathe?
It feels so different being here,
I was so used to being next to you,
Life for me is not the same,
There's no one to turn to.
I Don't know why I let it go too far,
Starting over it's so hard.
Seems like everywhere I try to go,
I keep thinking of you.
I just had a wake up call,
Wishing that I never let you fall,
Baby you are not blame at all.
Remember when I pushed you away?
Baby, if you knew I cared,
You'd have never went nowhere,
Girl I should've been right there.
How Do I Breathe,
Without you here by my side?
How will I see,
When your love brought me to the light?
Where do I go,
When your heart's where I lay my head?
When you're not with me,
How Do i Breathe?
How Do I breathe?
Girl, I'm losing my mind.
Yes I made a mistake.
I thought that you would be mine.
Guess the joke was on me.
I miss you so bad I can't sleep.
I wish I knew where you could be.
Another dude is replacing me,
But this can't be happening.
I can't get over you
Baby I don't wanna let go.
Girl, you need to come home,
Back to me,
Cause girl, You made it hard to breathe,
When you're not with me.
Sam is crying again. His heart has been bleeding since he left Giselle. He feels so lost. He doesn't know what to do. Every time he sees Giselle with the other guy, his heart crushed into a million pieces. But, he will continue to be strong. Every time he falls, he will pick himself up and continue to love Giselle with all his heart.
Sam will not leave Giselle. He will never leave her. Like a parasite, he will stick to her. He will be in her blood.
Semper Fedelis
JayTee